sunday, 6th april 2025
The sky is extremely blue today and the sun is shining brightly. It's too cold for me to sit outside on my balcony even with a lot of clothes and a blanket, but I sit next to the windows inside. It's probably better like that, because I spent a lot of time outside on Friday and the pollen completely messed me up. I made an effort today to tidy up my wardrobe and desk and declutter some of the university materials I no longer need. And I've watered and fertilized my plants! The blue tits of my neighborhood are again searching out my pot of fur to build their nests, like every year. It's amazing to know that since 2019, my dog's fur (tick-spray free!) has been used in several nests and he continues to contribute even after his death.
My fiancee made a curry and naan yesterday, and today I put apricot jam on the leftover naan. It has garlic and coriander in it but I don't mind mixing savory with sweet. The crime was immediately saved for posterity with a picture she took ;D
I find the internet profoundly boring recently. My RSS feeds are slow. People are reluctant to post, or to visibly post, since the complaints about the Discovery feed content, so that has been very dry for my tastes too. Either that, or everyone is collectively going through a blogging crisis. My favorite YouTube creators tend to post once a month or less. Even when I lower the bar and visit websites I usually don't visit, I find myself bored. I think I would view this positively if I considered my internet use a waste of time that would be better spent elsewhere, but I haven't felt that way for a long time now. I'm happy with how I spend my time here and it's in a good balance to the supposedly productive things. If anything, the internet being so boring and slow to me right now is throwing things off balance because I keep grinding my university materials instead because there's nothing else to read. Or I play Ace Attorney. The only cool thing online are the emails I get.
That had to be fixed, so I ordered 4 books. Chromophobia by David Batchelor, Ready Player One by Ernest Cline, The Left Hand of Darkness by Ursula K. LeGuin, and Sophie's World by Jostein Gaarder. 2 already arrived.
Ready Player One has been on my list for a while. The Left Hand of Darkness enticed me because I'm eager to keep reading more in the Hainish Cycle after loving The Dispossessed so much. Chromophobia felt relevant because I have been feeling colorstarved lately. Sophie's World spoke to me because philosophy was a straight-A class for me back in school and I've been missing having a sort of curriculum to follow to read more texts. I do have a selection of Stoicism texts at home that I read more around 2016-2020, but I want to branch out more because I noticed I miss it. Sophie's World is a novel that gives a great overview of many important ideas and schools of thought, and I hope will help find out what direction I should head in next. I'll maybe go deeper into works about Existentialism, but we'll see.
I found out today about an app I kind of like (gasp). It's an app where you add people in your contact list (if they also have it) and you send each other pictures that show on your lockscreen in a widget. I think that's very cute. I wouldn't share anything I don't share on this blog anyway and it's just to receive cute pictures of your friends' days without the weirdness of Snapchat or the performative aspect of Instagram or BeReal. Unfortunately I have no one to do this with, but it did kind of heal my soul a little to see an app whose concept didn't seem predatory and soulless. Wouldn't mind paying for it with pictures of my matcha lattes.
I had an insane day yesterday where I slept for 2 hours just to be awake for 1-2 hours reading my study material on my laptop before falling asleep again for 2 hours and repeat, all with laptop on my lap. I'm just so tired. This uterus is sucking the life out of me.
One thing I am looking forward to is preparing my first little bento box this evening to take with me to work tomorrow. The state of my office day lunches has drastically deteriorated the past month or so. It used to be leftovers from dinner the evening before, then it was grabbing anything that was mildly transportable (rice cakes, a tin of kimchi), until it ended up being two blank slices of bread. It was abysmal. I'm committed to eat better again. Eating like that had me ready to lie down on the floor with the garbage can next to me at the office, not knowing if I'm gonna vomit or not; turns out it was the kind of nausea and suffering that goes away when you eat.
So a few days ago, I made a list of things that are easy to prepare and store in my box that has a divider. I still need to get some more dividers or silicone muffin cups some time, but this will suffice for now. For tomorrow, it will be a few gyoza, cut cucumber, steamed broccoli, and wakame salad, plus maybe a date or two. For Thursday, I plan on fried tofu, cut cucumber, kimchi, onigiri, and edamame.
I'm also looking to make corn milk and ume puree. I wanna try making a matcha latte with corn milk and an ube latte. I sadly cannot find ube extract or powder in stores, just the whole purple yam, so I guess I will experiment with that.
I just got myself another naan and put chocolate spread on it. I have to be careful with chocolate because I tend to react badly to it, but once in a while is okay. And oh my god, this is heavenly. I love it. I'm going to finish reading about the New Romanticism and then I'm gonna continue studying.
Written to the sounds of a river.
Song of the Day: Santigold - Shove It
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Published 06 Apr, 2025