small thoughts: sunday reset, streaks, moodboards
In âsmall thoughtsâ posts, Iâm posting a collection of short thoughts and opinions that donât warrant their own post.
I donât seem to connect with the concept of âsunday resetâ or whatever âresetâ people on social media do every now and then. I donât really want to reset, I wanna move forward. I get why pretending to be a blank slate can be helpful, but it also feels like running from something for me. It feels like something is broken and youâre trying out the typical advice of âhave you tried turning it off and on again?â But why are you broken so often? Why is your routine falling apart so quickly every other week? Is it maybe just not feasible for you to keep up and not something you naturally built up, but a routine you copied from someone with vastly different needs and goals? Is it even important to have a very black and white view of consistency?
I donât like streak culture. I donât think my efforts were wasted because I took a break. Many things, even hobbies and good habits, donât need to be done daily. No app or whatever should punish me for taking a day off. Iâm not about to turn my private life into repetitive movements or assembly line work. I will not mindlessly do something to keep a streak. I want space to react to my own needs and wants in a flexible way. I need leeway to be sick, be bored of it, get into new things, be productive in other areas, or prioritize differently.
A rigid schedule is isolating. Your schedule will always clash with others and if you arenât willing to compromise and prioritize, youâre gonna pay a price.
I used to have a Pinterest account, but I closed it. I tried to get into making mood boards, but it felt weird paving the way to my dreams and visualizing my goals with someone elseâs staged images and marketing material. It just felt odd, and like it would set impossibly high standards for experiences and myself because things happening naturally will never look like the aesthetic images that were carefully planned and only the best pics even made it online. When I look at these images, I just imagine the circle light behind the camera, the carefully chosen background, two people readjusting the photographed persons hair and clothes, telling them to stand tall and suck in. The top has been fixed with needles on the side you canât see so it fits better for the angle. The person is checking out the first few pictures, isnât happy and wants to redo them. But at first glance, it looks candid.
Whatever I would experience would never measure up to these highly curated boards. I do admit it is super nice for hobby references and patterns (painting, sewing, embroideryâŚ).
Published 21 Aug, 2024, last edited 4Â weeks ago