rose ▪ bud ▪ thorn - june 2026
rose
- My wife and I visited a jewelry-making class, and I made a ring!
- We met cool new people to play Magic the Gathering with.
- I bought new furniture for my home to use the space for efficiently, and I love the new setup.
- My wife baked incredibly gorgeous and tasty bread.
- It's pride month, and my balcony has a rainbow flag and a trans flag flying for the time.
- I bought a little alien plushie, and two new books.
- I found new black tea I enjoy! Golden Seylom from Laos. I accidentally ordered way too much, but that's ok.
- I'm proud of the progress I make at the gym and the visual changes in my body.
- Been more into music this month, and rediscovering music I haven't listened to in years, or new songs by those artists I had missed in the meantime (from Tame Impala and JAWNY, mostly).
- Managed to do an injection all by myself for the first time.
- Cold water was restored in my apartment (context: for almost 3 weeks, I only had hot water).
bud
- Finding new/additional furniture for kitchen and bathroom to have more storage there as well.
- Going to take a step back in July and not read my RSS feed, the Discover page, not blog, not read any articles or papers, etc. to truly focus on recovering from stress, do less in total, and relax. I hope I can do it, and I hope I don't immediately feel like catching up afterwards and land right back where I started mentally.
thorn
- Building up the new role of data protection coordinator at my workplace has been extremely messy. I struggle against the general culture of distrust, hierarchies and knee-jerk rejection of anything new, and hatred of anything data protection related. I've been having so many meetings, and I have so much to prove. It feels like I have 3 people on my side, and that is it.
- Scheduling meetups with people was hard! There is always something going on, which is understandable, but still frustrating. I wish I could see some people more and keep more in contact :( I miss forced proximity.
- I felt like I had to chase after too many things for a follow-up or a reply lately. I asked people to hang out, received answers after days had passed, sometimes even after the suggested date had already passed. I called a company to fix my water issue, they said they’d call back, they never did. I wrote an email to my building management, no reply. Had to call them and sit through a phone queue to get through to them. It’s like I have to beg for crumbs and keep on top of everything because the other side just cares less or not at all.
- I felt like while many of my wishes and desires come true, it ends up being a monkey's paw situation, where the result has a strong downside or is implemented as shittily as possible.
- I struggled with a bad mental health episode that is now over, and a lack of appetite and some sleep issues. I seem to have become a lot more sensitive to violence and gross stuff in media, so I had to stop watching some series (for now) or risk going to bed in a sad and anxious mood.
- I had to have some tough private discussions.
- Found out the office layout is getting restructured in July and I’m getting moved from my office into a shittier one with different people. It shouldn’t bother me this much, but it does. I’m really mentally attached to keeping things how they are in my office environment and always having the same desk to go to, and this will destabilize me for a while, even if it’s something very small to others. I’m a bit oversensitive in this regard, and always have been. What makes it harder is that while the move is mandated from above, it is completely disorganized and no one seems to be tasked with doing or planning it properly, so that creates more uncertainty and anxiety for me. If I come into the office and it's suddenly done without warning, I might have a full on meltdown in the toilet, which would be annoying and embarrassing, and something I would like to avoid. The less fun effects of autism.
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