rose ▪ bud ▪ thorn - april 2026
rose
- Went on vacation with friends :)
- Had a fun time in some museum exhibitions!
- I've been putting effort into getting ready for working from home a similar way to how I get ready when I go to the office, and it has helped me feeling more ready and energized for the day.
- I've noticed how good my face skin looks like after spending time in the sun (with SPF 50 applied!); it clears up any bumps and redness, and makes my skin look very eve and smooth, like filtered. So whenever it is sunny outside in the mornings now, I spend at least 15 minutes on the balcony, with my face in the sun, soaking that up.
- The new Hello Kitty Island Adventure DLC released, and I love it so much. I also bought an Usahana Build-A-Bear and a little Usahana for my bag! I love her, and she reminds me to be more colorful and whimsical.
- It made me happy to dress up more this month and be more silly and adventurous with my looks whenever I could.
- I cut myself some bangs and my wife helped trim my ends. I originally planned to leave it all untouched until October so it'll be 2 years of uninterrupted growth since I cut off all my hair into a buzzcut, but it was necessary and I wanted a change. It looks good! I now have a similar haircut to Kiki from Kiki's Delivery Service, and my wife has put on the same kind of bow on me for fun.
- I started going back to the gym after feeling better again.
- I made my balcony spring/summer ready: Cut the plants, cleaned debris, wiped the furniture and brought out the seat cushions. Also planted new flowers!
- Bought three pants and two blazers. Big win, because clothes shopping feels awful to me and I hate trying stuff on. One of them has a really cute button; my wife thinks it's a seashell, I think it's a ginkgo leaf without the split. You'll see it at the bottom of this post.
- I bought cute stickers and a notepad from dinchenix I really like.
- Received my Gold Member package from noyb :)
bud
- Still working on cards to give out at events.
- I am working on a bigger blog project that will probably still take weeks, maybe months. Progress is hard and slow. I'm putting a lot of time and effort into this, lots of notes, drafts, sketches...
- I am starting training on the Leg Curl and the Leg Press machines on Friday.
thorn
- I didn't move forward in the interview process with the company I mentioned last month.
- Beginning of the month was hard emotionally/hormonally; I reached one month on dienogest and I felt too hot at night and felt very easily angered and wanted to cry a lot. It has gotten better in the meantime and now my mood is stable again.
- I found (but removed and treated) a source of mold in my home :/ I was storing the balcony seat cushions incorrectly.
- I was sadly harassed by an old guy while in the vacation home in Husum, who was staring into the windows and whistling at me out of nowhere. Made me feel unsafe in the home.
- I felt very lost at times. I wasn't sure whether I was strong enough, capable enough for the things I want to do. I fell pretty hard into a scarcity mindset, and got myself down with some comparisons, and feeling very fragile and hopeless with my illnesses.
- I also got disillusioned about blogging or having a blog in general; I needed to give myself the freedom of not thinking about it for a while. I no longer knew what I wanted it to be or why I wanted it to go on, and it all just felt like a fever dream I woke up from. Surely influenced by the above moods, but also, it's hard to change and grow with an existing thing sometimes.
- I suspect the ulcer at my ileocecal valve has come back. I went back on Prednisone for a short while for it. Currently back off of it and feeling okayish.
- I had some tough times and communication issues in friendships that were difficult for me to deal with (but are now resolved).
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